My Realife Rom Com
My life has thus far, followed the story arch of a classic romantic comedy. I was a normal girl, and life was going well, but I decided to go on an adventure of a lifetime and follow my dreams. Hilarity ensues! But here’s the deal. Changing your life is hard, and figuring out how you want your life to look, is harder. If my life were a movie this “figuring out what the hell is next” phase I’m going through, would have taken up 15 minutes and a montage set to a song by a female singer/songwriter, and I would be falling in love with a fiery director by now (think Jon Hamm).
What’s happening in my real life is slightly less exciting. Worrying, slowly taking steps that could possibly get me closer to my dreams, watching eight hour Law & Order SVU marathons, checking my abandoned OKCupid profile for messages (you never know right?), and battling adult acne. Real change is excruciatingly slow, but it’s where you separate the fantasy from reality. It’s where you find out if you really have the courage to take the journey, with only your gut as your compass. Now is the time that I face my darkness & self defeating mindsets and find out if I really have what it takes, or if this is all just an at work daydream gone too far. It’s hard and not very sexy.
And eventually I know I’ll get there, I’m just not sure when, or what “there” looks like. No biggie. So far I think I’m doing alright though. I’ve just realized that my happily ever after just won’t be rom com simple. And I’m OK with that.